1 00:00:02,020 --> 00:00:04,990 there is , Ah , a period in my military 2 00:00:04,990 --> 00:00:07,101 career where I realized that I didn't 3 00:00:07,101 --> 00:00:09,046 trust myself around firearms . One 4 00:00:09,046 --> 00:00:11,040 night before B A . I had a lot of 5 00:00:11,040 --> 00:00:14,160 thoughts , was specifically stressful , 6 00:00:14,700 --> 00:00:18,100 and I came forward the next day 7 00:00:18,370 --> 00:00:20,092 and in the morning , I told my 8 00:00:20,092 --> 00:00:22,259 commander , I have something I need to 9 00:00:22,259 --> 00:00:24,370 tell you about . He could tell by the 10 00:00:24,370 --> 00:00:24,280 look in my eyes and I was tired . The 11 00:00:24,280 --> 00:00:26,391 first thing that came out of my first 12 00:00:26,391 --> 00:00:28,613 Surgeons first sergeant mouth was , Are 13 00:00:28,613 --> 00:00:30,724 you thinking about killing yourself ? 14 00:00:30,724 --> 00:00:32,836 And I really reluctantly sat there in 15 00:00:32,836 --> 00:00:34,891 that chair . I decided it said yes , 16 00:00:35,070 --> 00:00:37,000 absolutely . And it was from that 17 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:39,380 moment they dropped everything . They 18 00:00:39,380 --> 00:00:41,547 dropped everything in order to take me 19 00:00:41,547 --> 00:00:45,050 to the ER . In that moment , I'm so 20 00:00:45,050 --> 00:00:46,050 thankful for it . 21 00:00:56,440 --> 00:00:58,607 He really created this environment for 22 00:00:58,607 --> 00:01:01,510 me to feel safe and wanting to go back 23 00:01:01,510 --> 00:01:04,130 to drill every weekend just to let him 24 00:01:04,130 --> 00:01:07,090 know that I was doing better . So we 25 00:01:07,090 --> 00:01:10,560 wear this uniform to serve , and , um , 26 00:01:11,040 --> 00:01:13,096 basically , when you're in a time of 27 00:01:13,096 --> 00:01:16,230 need and a time of sadness or grief 28 00:01:16,470 --> 00:01:20,130 can't perform to the extent that you 29 00:01:20,130 --> 00:01:22,250 want Teoh . That's why I'm telling my 30 00:01:22,250 --> 00:01:25,850 story kind of help you realize that ? 31 00:01:26,540 --> 00:01:28,940 No . It's OK to ask for help . It's 32 00:01:28,940 --> 00:01:32,350 okay to feel down . It's OK to hurt , 33 00:01:32,940 --> 00:01:35,800 but , um it's not okay to quit . 34 00:01:38,390 --> 00:01:42,160 Don't give up . Fight . You 35 00:01:42,160 --> 00:01:45,950 never power . You never worthless ? 36 00:01:46,340 --> 00:01:49,160 No without each other . We're nothing . 37 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:52,840 So why would you suffer in silence ? 38 00:01:53,690 --> 00:01:57,150 Tell someone Reach out . It doesn't 39 00:01:57,150 --> 00:01:59,900 make you less of a man less of a person , 40 00:01:59,910 --> 00:02:02,450 period for you to seek for help . 41 00:02:03,890 --> 00:02:06,950 That's why we all exist to complement 42 00:02:06,950 --> 00:02:09,580 each other , to make each other better . 43 00:02:10,240 --> 00:02:12,410 There is hope , right ? If you are 44 00:02:12,410 --> 00:02:16,370 someone who has lost a loved one as I 45 00:02:16,370 --> 00:02:18,370 have as many as my soldiers have is 46 00:02:18,370 --> 00:02:21,650 their families have Please . No , 47 00:02:22,140 --> 00:02:24,860 that , uh , we need you . I need you . 48 00:02:25,440 --> 00:02:28,180 You need you to reach out to someone 49 00:02:28,270 --> 00:02:32,010 around you . If you are seriously 50 00:02:32,010 --> 00:02:35,750 contemplating no taking your own life , 51 00:02:36,740 --> 00:02:39,790 please . No , that there is hope . 52 00:02:40,440 --> 00:02:42,560 Find whatever that is . Whatever that 53 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:45,980 reason to live is on . Go after it with 54 00:02:45,980 --> 00:02:46,490 your whole heart